What if you tried and put in effort to do something hoping it'd be special for someone,but that same person turns around and asked you if you harboured a motive?
Would you continue trying as though it didn't happen or accept it happened.
If somehow you could continue trying,would it be with the same heart as before?

If making it up was to walk away,i would say you never have to ever make it up.

What if a sorry or a simple gesture that said it never came?
Did pride get in the way,or it didn't seem to bother you that you said what you said,did what you did?

It takes time to build the sturdiest bridges,time to forge the sharpest swords,time to nurture,time to love selflessly.
It also takes time to repair any bridge or building,time to sharpen any sword,time to make things right.
But then again time without effort,is but words without action,the sea without water.

After all that happened,these two were the least that should be and gladly forked out.But what good is there,when there's just one hand,how do you feel the spaces between the fingers?It was that simple,and it is that simple.What good is everything if you can't even bother to reply?

Today sucked,well the only thing i looked forward to on tuesdays,are the lectures,and p.e.Yes p.e,cause we all get to hate and curse the teacher together in one breath,in a way it forges a bond between us all.Today was a little different,for the first time i wished i had chinese oral today instead of tomorrow.Before you say i've changed for the good,it was actually more of having econs lesson when ben and timothy could skip it and the idea of that was hard to swallow.
Stayed back again like yesterday,same reason as always,and like most of the times i felt it was dumb.But still it's a gesture from me that i cared still.Anyway played soccer,and i utterly regretted that,for all the euphoria i got from scoring,a thigh injury ruined everything.To add salt to my wounds,i was told tomorrow's the 2.4km run for napfa.I can almost hear Mr nordin saying "Horrible,(with head shaking and his shitty accent)verrry horrible...I thought i told you people to run during the holidays?You people are verrry weak!"

On way home,it looked like i was some lazy shitass who couldn't be bothered to send his girl home.Bah its ironic in a way,and totally unfair to me,explaining myself would be dumb and futile,and it'd be making another look bad.Anyway took a bus with my friend,and somehow it just ends up on the "your girl" topic,and without fail it never fails to be demoralising.I'd never fail to look and feel like shit when people ask me that question,awkward and embarssing.I shall never broach on that topic with guys again,demoralising and ends up with the same conclusion without fail.